As I slowly rock back and forth in the corner...

(Come on we all have THOSE sort of days)

.. I begin to wonder how my life has come to this point, why me? ... woe is me! ... such is life! ... could be worse, could be raining ... que sera, sera ... and all that jazz.

In all seriousness though, life is actually good.
Yes, the kids drive me up the wall
Yes, I don't always like the person staring back in the mirror
Yes, I'm tired of being a PS3 widow on husbeast's few nights off work
But y'know what, we have our health, we have healthy, happy children, a good relationship and direction in our lives. I'd say that's pretty good.

Life is never perfect and I would never claim it to be, just ask the other customers in Kfart this afternoon who watched as I frantically tried to run in opposite directions after my rambunctious 2 and 4 year olds, yelling out in vain hope that they might actually cause me to die of shock by listening for ONCE, just like all the mothers I used to shake my head at as a teen (That's called Karma, 15-year-old-me!)

I think my goal to be more positive might just be coming to fruition ;)

New Year, New Car, New Job, New Me!!!

Well, life has changed so much in the last few months...

I managed to get, not just one, but two job offers!!! I think I surprised myself  with the one I chose. I had the plan all set out for working at the big public hospital I had been at for most of my studies. My final placement changed my whole outlook and job prospects completely! So now I start work, in just a few short weeks, at the best little hospital around. The staff are so nice, for the most part, and I'm really looking forward to it. It was my second job offer, just a day after the first, and the decision was easy, a lot easier than I thought it would be.

The summation of my hard work for the last 4 years was just two weeks ago(4 days before Xmas!) and it was such a happy, and to be honest, emotional day. Graduating is something to be proud of, but Uni had been a huge part of my life for so long, its scary to think of moving on from that stage of my life. But alas I must ;-)

My reward for my hard work and becoming a full time member of the health workforce, a Brand New Car!!! Its little and pretty and blue!

Now onto the hardest of changes, new me! Everyone makes resolutions for the new year, and while I consider this to be a much earlier work in progress, this is one I will follow through! I will become the healthier, slimmer Mummy that my babies deserve. Burying my head in the sand about it is not an option anymore, I'm fast approaching an age where my weight will start affecting my health if it hasn't already.

Onwards and upwards from here...

The waiting is slowly killing me it seems

Friday is D-day, the day I peg all my hopes on for my future career. The day I find out whether I got the New Grad job.

I'm really hoping it brings good news, but as the day draws closer I seem to be having mini panic attacks just thinking about it and doubting my performance in the interview more and more. It's really not a nice feeling and I'm trying to employ my positive thinking where needed, but it helps less each day closer to that day I get.

For now I'm going to try and put it out of my mind and concentrate on the job at hand, 5 weeks full time experiencing the full scope of perioperative nursing, albeit unpaid. It's quite an exciting prospect given that it's the path I intend to follow for the next 4-5 years while the Husbeast does his teaching degree and I'm so glad of the opportunity.

Now that the little people are in bed I guess it's time to cook dinner(really need to get used to DLS), going to attempt some yummy Chow Mein in Thermie. Should be Yummo and hit the spot, even if it is supposed to be put away for the kids' dinner when I work evening shift, lol.

Fingers, toes and everything possible crossed for Friday...

It's days like today...

When my children remind me why some animals eat their young!

The day started off like any other with a 6am wake up from miss 3(who's usually been up for 30-45 already, playing in her room as she insists on waking at the first rays of light) and the usual demands for immediate provision of breakfast. Which true to form resulted in 1/3 of said breakfast being spilt/smeared over placemats, table, upholstered chairs and the floor *sigh* And of course the little people.

Tooday has been one of those days where every time I turn around they're trashing/breaking/destroying something else. Considering we've been out for a large proportion of the day, is a feat in itself. Or they're rolling around on the floor screaming and trying to kill each other(like right now) for some reason that I'm sure justifies world war 3 in their eyes. All the while I'm trying to make some token effort to tidy up, which is of course pointless till they're both asleep, and drowning out the screams by repeating the phrase "Bring on Bedtime" over and over in my head.

Dinner tonight is care of the newest member of the family, Thermie. She is so great, makes life easier, our diet healthier and as long as we treat her well, never complains(well husbeast, the consultant is would be the one doing the complaining but you get what I mean ;-) ) Chicken in Yoghurt it is, partly because I have nearly a kilo of fresh homemade yoghurt waiting to be used and partly because the reviews sound good, watch this space...

Intro

I'm Carmen, Mumma to 2, miss '3 going on 15' and Mr 'wrecking ball on legs'. The are the light of my life and they make it worthwhile, well them and the Husbeast too, lol.

A little about me...

Im in the final weeks of my Bachelor of Nursing degree, so close to becoming a registered nurse with future aspirations to become a midwife. I'm a novice knitter, a sci-fi fan and an avid cook, especially with our new Thermomix. I'm also currently a Partylite Candle Consultant because... I love them lol

I'm also a sufferer of PND and chronic depression, very proactive in my recovery and supportive of others, but more on that later...

This is my first ever dabble in blogging, and with a lot of changes coming in the near future it's a good chance to keep a record of my journey.